Ever have you wondered if u could be happy if u were merely being used for the moment? Some how I am happy? Some how I find joy that I was chosen, yes I the one to use. And why? Because I am soo addicted that I find the smallest excuse to not quit.
Just as I walk away I hear her voice whisper a smile that draws me closer to the flame.
Yet I know this is going to be only for a few days yet its worth all the heart ache it worth all the sleepless nights.
Addiction the best and worst thing to ever happen. And all I can shamelessly beg is for just a lil more time. What if don’t want to let go, what if don’t want to accept that is the end.
I watched you smile to day again I relived a memory long forgotten I felt the warmth of ur skin and all I can do is beg for more. Your still the same that smile wont ever change, it will always be the one I fall in love with, it will always remind of the best time of my life. Yet I know I must leave it behind yet I know I shall never kiss ur smile like I once did, and slowly the poison take control, finally I drift in to silence the sweet sound from far away plays me to sleep yet that smile wonders thru my mind, sending soft flames thru my body until I am consumed by the fire yet we are not to blame.
So for how long must I keep pretending everything’s all right, till slowly truth like a serpent slithers around me and crushes me to death?
The Person i think i am
- still life
- Bombay, maharashtra, India
- The dark road of my thoughts::: As I sit here and wait for the coming of the end I look back and wonder in this short span of a life how I affected people, as what type of person will they remember me? Will I be remembered? Its not easy to accept the truth. All i am left with is a hope in a dream that may never come true.
